I'm seriously considering quitting WoW.

I love the game, I enjoy playing it, I have a lot of fun tanking or DPSing or whatever... it's just been destroyed by my own personal charisma of five and all the social failings that come with it.

There's only one thing I really want out of WoW in the end, what would keep me coming back to the game constantly, and that's just the opportunity to every once in a while (one or two times a week), gather up some of my friends and go beat the crap out of an instance.

I don't like PVP combat. I just plain don't. It's all right in battlegrounds (for those of you unfamiliar, BGs are basically PVP combat with a set goal -- capture the flag, get X number of points through various means, etc.), since they're more than just "beat the other guy till he dies" and don't rely on specific character specs, tactics, etc. But BGs don't offer chances for advancement; that comes through arenas, which are every bit "beat the other team till they die", and that simply doesn't appeal to me.

What I like is PVE -- going into dungeons and raids with four or nine other people to challenge diffcult and powerful boss mobs. Now, in the upcoming expansion, raids (the endgame content for the highest-level players, strongly tied into the story and lore of the Warcraft universe) will only require ten people. And yet, despite having gathered a group of people who I specifically like and trust, I can't even get FIVE together, and it's been made clear to me in absolute, certain terms that left no room for doubt that I will *never* have ten people to go into an raid. *Never.*

My only other option is to find a guild on Nazgrel that would take me in -- and that basically amounts to flinging myself amongst a group of strangers, who in all likelihood will not respect my desires to NOT raid every night, nor the hard work I'm willing to put in, nor me. Not that anyone ever respects me, ever, but eh. It's not a palatable option. I've said from the beginning I would rather raid with friends than strangers; I would rather have fun than feel like I'm working a job that pays in epics instead of money.

Why should I drop $50 on the expansion when I'll just end up frustrated and unhappy again in ten levels?

What really bothers me about this, though, is knowing that it's my own fault. If I could just be friendlier, or a better guild master, or less selfish, or... or SOMEthing, I wouldn't have these problems. I've tried my damndest, and *failed*, to do something that comes *easily* to other people. I am just that inadequate compared to other people.

I hate my player for using Charisma as a dump stat. Let me be a lesson to all of you roleplayers out there.

It's just bitterly, bitterly frustrating to have lost something fun because I failed at something so simple.