Last night I realized what my problem is lately.

I have too much to worry about.

I realized this after keeping myself awake for half an hour worrying, worrying, worrying. I blame Shadow-of-the-Velvet-Curtain (metis Fostern Shadow Lord Theurge, currently challenging for Adren) for a lot of this, as perverse as that may seem.

Of course, my role-playing characters aren't my only source of angst. I worry about a lot of people around here too. What bothers me is that sometimes, people will hide their pain from me, because they KNOW I can only take so much and be so strong before I break. But that doesn't work! I just feel worse when I find out. And it's not like I can't care. I always care when someone hurts.

Lot of problems on my own, too; most of them school-related. Big papers; looming deadlines. Thanksgiving was a great break, but now it's just all coming back and hitting me harder. Two more weeks of classes, two more weeks of classes.

My Playstation is broken, and after weighing several alternatives, I decided against getting it repaired and instead opted for an early Christmas present to myself. The Playstation One, for those of you who haven't heard, is essentially an *incredibly* small version of the regular Playstation. It's a little larger than, say, a Game Gear -- which is pretty impressive considering it plays CDs and all. Fully functional, fully compatible with all existing accessories. The size is a really great asset for me, considering the travel I have to do, and they're making an LCD screen and battery backup for it!

So I ordered one, and Final Fantasy IX and Chrono Cross. Now if only Amazon would SHIP it, I could stop fidgeting over it so much! (Too bad I won't be able to afford Breath of Fire IV and Lunar 2 when they come out...)

FFIX + FFVII + FFVIII + Chrono Cross + Legend of Mana + Vagrant Story + No work and no classes during final exams == STRESS RELIEF CITY! BooYAH!

Longest post I've made in a good long while. Go fig. :D