Today I was thinking about balance. How fair is life?

I was thinking about how miserable I was. How I've been weighed down with so many responsibilities and so forth that I've been robbed of something -- my youth, my fun, something.

But then I thought of something else.

I have a wonderful girlfriend, and two wonderful friends. In short, there are a full three people in my life who I can trust, talk to, care about, love -- unconditionally. And recieve the same in return. And know the exchange for what it is; know where I stand, at all times, and in all circumstances.

No matter what happens -- no matter if the stars fall from the sky and destroy us all tomorrow -- no matter if we split to the corners of the earth -- no matter what happens... it is eternal. And I know it for such.

That makes it all worthwhile.

I was in such a terrible mood today, I had planned to cry myself to sleep tonight. I may still do that now, but for a far different reason -- simple joy, unreserved and unrestrained, that these wonderful, beautiful people could forgive me my faults, my sins, my folly, and care about me.

It's all worthwhile. All the shit, the heartache, the headaches, the disasters and catastrophes, the cataclysms and disappointments... all of it.

Is worth it.

Thanks to three very special, wonderful people.