I tend to get berated a lot for posting nothing but negative comments in the journal. I suppose that's true, and I'm sorry.

With that said, another negative comment in the making.

My old boss quit over winter break, and his boss -- possibly the stupidest and most inept person I know -- decided it was completely and utterly necessary for HIM to take over the duties of the position.

Mind you, he has absolutely no idea how to handle my boss's old position -- not the slightest damn idea. This doesn't stop him from trying, however.

I work the job because I need the money. I don't make any pretense about it. I work the job because if I didn't, I would have no money whatsoever to spend. None. My meals would consist entirely of ramen and water to drink, and I wouldn't be able to even tag along with my friends to, well, pretty much anything. I wouldn't even be able to role-play on AOL, since I have to pay for that too.

My old boss understood. My new boss does not. Already he's sent me home today since he doesn't have an absolute set-in-stone schedule for me. That's four hours of work I'm missing. That's about $30.

I'm in school, aren't I? I'm here for my future, supposedly -- but I don't want to even think about what he'll say when I try to get time off to look for a job or a place to live after MY IMMINENT GRADUATION. Let alone if I have to meet with someone to do a group project -- which I will.

I wouldn't be so concerned about this situation if buying books this semester was not going to, quite literally, run my bank account down to its last few cents. By April I have to somehow come up with the money to fly out to see Ellen. I can probably pull it off, if I spend absolutely nothing between now and then, but it still bothers me.

It really, really bothers me.

Ah well. I only have four months of this shit to put up with -- less if I decide the misery simply isn't worth it, and quit. Which I well might. Or I might get fired -- though I have no idea who'll do all the work if I am. I'm just very upset and frustrated about this mess right now. Probably just because it's a very immediate conflict. I can still hope everything'll be all right... maybe?

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I'm sorry my first long post in ages is so negative. There are good things in my life. My classes look interesting, or if not, I have the ability to goof off in them so far. Ellen's coming to visit at the beginning of February. That makes me feel a lot better!

Right now, though, I'm just cranky because I got up at 8:00 for nothing. Oh, and I'm extremely, extremely, extremely affection-starved. Even more so than normal. And on a related note, I have yet to see my friends here since I got back, and I miss them terribly. (And since you guys read this, take pity on a poor lonely dragon and get in touch with me! ;D )

Ah well. I hope I have something better to say next time I decide to say it.