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[dragonoflife]

Today is going to be a miserable day.

Already some people are mad at me, others not present when or where they should be. My body is falling apart on me, and I just want to curl up into a ball and cry.

What bothers me is that a lot of my life is spent like this. Most people aren't fond of the I'm-miserable-because-I'm-a-terrible-person-and-deserve-it theory, but it's the only one that makes any sense. Occam's Razor -- the simplest explanation that fits the known data is usually the correct one.

I'll do my best to wade through misery, although the awareness that I don't deserve to pull through it at all is ever-present.

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My personal explanation

[(Anonymous)]

It seems more logical to me to think of it as "stuff happens".

That's even simpler.

It's also something one can live with, and it doesn't incorporate needless self blame.

~SR~

Re: My personal explanation

[dragonoflife.livejournal.com]

Except if it were random stuff happening, there would be good stuff that happened too.

[tigerphoenix.livejournal.com]

Not necessarily. I get dumped on all the time.

Re: My personal explanation

[(Anonymous)]

Even if the chance is 50/50 that a good thing or a bad thing will happen, randomness does not mean the actual events will turn out 50/50 good/bad. (Thank you, Statistics.) It's more likely it'll be skewed somehow.

Anyways, if you place all the good events in one event space, and all the bad events in another event space, is there really an equal chance of a good event or a bad event happening?

To me, there tend to be more things that can go wrong with a "project" than can go right - which means the bad event space would be larger, and more bad things would happen in a random sense.

~grins~ Given this, I suppose I should be surprised life is as good as it is.

Keep going, Dragon. Things'll work out.

~SR~

Re: My personal explanation

[dragonoflife.livejournal.com]

See, I'm not asking for everything to be good, or for half the things that happen to be good. All I want is for one good thing to happen, once in a while.

I mean -- right now nothing good is happening. Hard work, classwork that never ends, and the monotony is only broken by the occasional crisis like the $150 dental work. If you want to use statistics, well, then statistically having nothing good happen is in violation of every rule of probability... so clearly there must be a reason for it.

[dragonoflife.livejournal.com]

You got to go to Salem the other day, so don't tell me nothing good ever happens to you!