So as part of the whole total-bullshit court sentence, I have to complete an anger management program. Aside from the obvious questions (e.g. what the hell am I going to learn from it? Unless they have a way to teach me to deal with the overall anger I feel towards the world at large for being so irredeemably stupid, which I doubt), the process has overall been less than helpful. My CSO has basically said, "Go get some, and make it decent."

Any clear standards? No. Any suggestions or resources? No. Incidentally, have I mentioned that it's simply not feasible for me to complete some 8, 12, whatever week bullshit course given my word scheduled and the ludicrous amount of community service dumped on me?

(To clarify: If I complete all my requirements in 6 months, there's a chance I can be released from probation early. Now, considering this requires the judge to grant my request, the chance of it *actually* happening is vanishingly small, the more so because some of the people in the probation office have told me she won't do it anyway. So I probably shouldn't be worrying about it, but nevertheless, I'm being asked to complete 150 hours of community service plus however goddamn many hours of anger management -- when I can only do Saturdays and Sundays. So, yeah.)

Today's entry is to complain about my health insurance, however. I asked them if they covered anger management therapy; they said yes. I asked them how to find a provider for it; they said use their provider search function. I pointed out that the provider search function doesn't let you search for anger management providers; they said, yeah, you have to pretty much guess. Call providers and ask them if they provide the service.

Translation: We don't provide benefits for anger management counseling, you're on your own; also, fuck you.

You know what would make me less angry? Less bitter, unhappy, and hostile? IF SOMETHING WOULD GO FUCKING RIGHT FOR A CHANGE GODDAMMIT. I'd like SOMEthing, ANYGODDAMNTHING, to not have to be a constant fight from the moment I have to deal with it till weeks after I've done it and it should have been finished business. I swear to Crystal Dragon Jesus I've lost my goddamn patience and my goddamn tolerance for all of this. CUT ME SOME SLACK.

Well, whatever. Another thousand bucks or so I might as well have flushed down the toilet. Maybe I'll catch up to my bills by 2011.