See, I can't argue that I make my own future -- because I know exactly how fragile it is. Through no fault of my own, and from factors entirely out of my control, my future has been severely damaged and compromised already. I have no reason to believe that anything other than luck ultimately controls one's future -- and luck being nothing more than forces outside one's control, forces which are negative according to every branch of science (I am speaking literally, here; see entropy, for example), it stands to reason that a desire for a positive future will almost certainly not be realized.

I do believe in things I have cause to believe in, though. I do believe in things that give me the strength to keep going. It's just that I'm going forward without any belief that things will improve or desires will be realized.