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[dragonoflife]

I regret the existence of that facet of my personality, whatever it is, that causes people to believe I am more evil than Satan and more malevolent than the Antichrist.

I regret that somehow my every statement can be twisted into one of hostility, vitriol, deliberate offense, or just plain distaste.

I regret that I can always manage to make people loathe me.

But after so many years and so much time, all I can do is sigh in quiet depression and accept that I am this flawed, that charisma was my dump stat, and that no power I possess can change this fact.

No matter how much pain it causes or how much grief I go through because of it.

Comments

[elf-fu.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry, I guess I wasn't clear. The words in "" were an example only of the Eeyore effect and meant as an example of what I see as the general attitude I get to see from you on line.

[dragonoflife.livejournal.com]

Well, we don't converse regularly and I don't post frequently these days, and when I do it's often to bitch. ^.^

[elf-fu.livejournal.com]

I'm able to read most of your journal entries that aren't filtered. My observance still stands--it's not a recent thought. I've had this impression of you since I've known Ellen.

[dragonoflife.livejournal.com]

And something I've been working on improving. I do think, at least in my own mind, there's a difference between thinking nobody likes me, and observing that I seem to be an incredibly polarizing person!